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Esperanza

by The Aether Tree

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1.
Alma Hueca 09:47
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The webs of memory, sealing my eyes shut Holding the pyrogen in my lungs I am ill; vernal and grey In the infernal fray All the life in the world-stillborn La verdad pyrexiada esta viniendo Tan dificil rechazar la dolencia olarosa Con su cancion sirenal Cantando con la dulzura de una caricia Hung by our wrists with the finest silk Spun from the tongue of this monolith of fear We are paralyzed; terminal and grey In the vernal fray All the light in our eyes-stillborn La verdad pyrexiada esta viniendo Tan dificil rechazar la dolencia olarosa Con su cancion sirenal Cantando con la dulzura de una caricia The will to not be bound, the courage to not be blinded By those who themselves see nothing but death in the spaces Between their brethren Two flames fighting over the same dead tree The tree of our grandfather There is no shelter here The spiders have friends amongst the flies Webs in the spaces between the blind We will flee our brethren Those who would cut our throats with pages torn from their bibles Into the mist, lodging ourselves in its throat Testing our nerves of steel against teeth of lead The will to not be bound The courage to not be blinded If only you could feel the teeth raking against your spine Hiding in the spaces between your fingers The fingers that would cut the strings The strings of those who bound themselves to your will Blinded by your courage Blood fills in the spaces, and you see the truth The tree of your grandfather is dead Ay dios mio…que yo he hecho? Tu eres una sombra de una mariposa Nos hemos deshechos y caidos en mundos seperados Nunca jamas sentire la dulzura de tu caricia Estas en cielo, estas en cielo, estas en cielo Y soy un alma hueca
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Cracks in the Mirror 05:46
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Anything, yes please anything To delay shame til I rise Surely the maelstrom in my viscera will Choke the protests of my mind Everything, yes everything Dulls and chills and slows and fills my bones With defilement Bear witness then as I sever all the ties To all the proud noble things that I have been Anywhere, yes anywhere will do I won’t feel the surface I sleep on Nor the humanity I’ve purged, the self respect I had earned I have no honour left to lean on Anyone, yes anyone can see How I’ve become so pathetic But no one, no no one can see The cracks in the mirror match the scars on me
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Pyrexia 07:10
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Born, I am born. Aware, I am born. I am real, the most real I’ll ever be. Because the black and white macrocosm Beyond my grasping fingers steals the shades of life from my skin Will I ever escape the illusory reality raging around me? Why does it feel like the air here has grown hungry teeth? I could point the finger, I could kill the murderer I would suffer any sickness, to leave this world a dreamer I dissolve and disconnect myself from my breath Drowning betwixt the rusted souls of the dead We have forgotten our humanity in our quest to circumvent The macrocosm that stole the shades of love from our hands Will I ever escape the illusory reality raging around me? Why does it feel like the air here has grown hungry teeth? I could point the finger, I could kill the murderer I would suffer any sickness, to leave this world a dreamer For it is only in feverdreams that we outgrow our cage… only in feverdreams that we see the truth, become martyrs, barter With god for the release of our souls Our cold, rusted souls In the end we will reap the plague And become the disease we nurtured Stealing the meaning and purpose From the dreams of those we murdered We are the guilty ones Lost in the hungry maw of the macrocosm I am just a finger on the hand of a murderer I would suffer any sickness, to leave this world a dreamer
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Dewdrops at Dusk 10:03
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I found you on the floor Staring out the window and straight through the sky Your ghost still stuck under your skin Holding on to a wisp of the light That I felt when I first looked in your eyes But now I only feel your secret sickness As you disappear, like dew to the sun A chill rushes through the room And I know I’m alone I lost you on the floor Staring out the window as though you were a caged bird Waiting to fly away on a wisp of light Spreading the wings you dreamed of growing on the worst nights To carry you to some secret absolution As you disappear, like dew to the sun A chill rushes through the room And I know I’m alone I will bury you with all my love And let the wilted flowers crumble on your grave You will be forgotten You will be neglected You will walk alone in the shadows of my sin Your memory will fade, like the waning moon At the first rays of sunlight Aunque nos desamparamos, nosotros caeremos juntos Somos mechones de luz en el vacio Unidos en la danza macabra Tu abandonaste mas que tu propia vida Tu abandonaste mas que tu propia dolencia Tu abandonaste mas que tu propia esperanza Tu abandonaste a mi Aunque los flores se marchitan Y pasan afuera de memoria Quedarramos bajo de la piel De la verdad en nuestro delirio Tu abandonaste mas que tu propia vida Tu abandonaste mas que tu propia dolencia Tu abandonaste mas que tu propia esperanza Tu abandonaste a mi Pero no puedo abandonarte
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The Art and the Equation 08:33
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I am adrift, lost without purpose And no one to share my dereliction with My god, where have I been? Where am I going? Maybe somewhere under different stars in a different land in a different time Someone dreams my dreams and drinks of the wine of ages… I have dreamed a dream, but now that dream is gone from me And the world seems as grey as my breath What can these hands do to unmake the inevitable without something to hold onto? I am adrift, lost without purpose and no one to share my dereliction with My god, is there no truth in the space between the art and the equation? But even in my dystopia, I can see the door And you hold the key that is ours to turn I will tear this edifice to shreds Through the artifice of my hands But even through my dystrophication, the tumblers fall into place You breathe the polluted breath I breathe as we ignite this blaze I will tear this edifice to shreds Through the artifice of my hands I’m not here to make a choice I’m only here to break what is mine to break I must find the purpose in myself To take the road that is mine to take But my intent is polluted Where is the courage I had when I was blind? Disconnected from my dreams I see the world as the murdered see Without hope, we have no control Over the reasons for our bleeding So I will bleed in the face of reason I will bleed for the light I wish to see Without hope we will never know a world not bound by these controls I will bleed as I have bled in my wildest dreams I will bleed because I choose to Because it will set me free I’m not here to make the choice I’ve already made I’m only here to understand why I chose this fate I have found the purpose in myself To break the road that is mine to break
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Mia Rosa 05:58
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Can you possibly know of the hooks that vault from your lips? Those pointed, intoxicating words That pierce through my armor yet stop short of drawing blood? If only I had it to give Is this a game? A race to see whose cowardly heart will burst first In magnificent crimson rays Our world would be red We would drown in each others' viscera Can you possibly know that I would share with you Love as soon as death? Come closer. Set the hooks. And look me in the eyes. My iron form, so drawn to your radiance Cannot but rust in the expanse that lies between us I would chew through chain and pray through pain And hate myself for my selfishness My skin black with the soot of my burning ire Why is this so hard? Those maddening moments where my face is flushed And my heart wants to run and hide The sight, the sound, portentious of the sensation I want The feeling I am denied So I deny myself all feeling Because I am iron, I am immoveable And I am alone Mi alma decrepita, llena de miedo y desperacion Come closer. Set the hooks. And look me in the eyes.
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Menos Grande 06:01
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Que yo he hecho? Porque tiemblan mis manos con culpa? Oscuridad como esta puede existar solo en las almas Mas huecas en el abismo Yo veo tu muerte en sombras de mariposas Y los ojos de los inocentes La pala que cava tu sepultura No puede empezar llenar el vacio en mi alma Esperando en mi espectra favorita Llenar la herida con adormecimiento Mientras me adormezco bajo la pesa de mi culpa Y la luz de mi alma es jalada hacia la oscuridad Mi memoria final antes de yo caiga en suenos pyrexiados sera De las mariposas en la lluvia Que seria si fuera la lluvia? Sabria el camino a ti traves de la muerte? No tengo la fuerza deshacer eternidad Soy solo un otro engranaje de la maquinacion del menos grande Donde estan nuestras mariposas?
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Esperanza 08:22
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I long to see things with the wisdom of a child To see with vision that cuts through the fog of life To feel the light of love and to love fiercely and fearless Because somewhere, there’s something to be seen Something to be believed in Something magical, something forgotten Something pure Esperanza, quiero creer en ti Esperanza, quiero crearte en mi I long to know the truth deep in my soul, and never lose grip of it But I have aged, my hands are weak I’ve lost the eyes that see through the haze Somehow, there must be a way To escape the nooses we were forced to make What if I said no? What if I grew wings? What if I became the light I wanted to see? When everything you hold sacred crumbles, When your world fails Will you fail with it? Dragged down by your armor? Or will you shed your gauntlets and use your hands to build a fire To burn away the disease? Breed the pyrexia this world needs Esperanza, quiero creer en ti pero Esperanza, no puedo crearte en mi Somos tontos, perdidos en la oscuridad que hemos creado Para escondernos de los ojos de dios No podemos saber que nos espera en el mar de la sangre que nosotros hemos derramado No hay armadura que nos salve Somos como cenizas Y no hay vida que puede crecer de nuestra verguenza Esperanza, donde estas en este mundo?
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Scratching at Clouds 06:40
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No escape-no eyes to see, no ears to hear Just the buzzing buzzing buzzing Pressing in I swear the sound Could shatter stone, but I alone am left In this deep grave dug with shallow intent No escape-no eyes to see, no ears to hear Just the dripping dripping dripping Pressing in I swear this water Could shatter bones, but I alone am left In this shallow well filled with deep secrets So afraid of being hurt, I set myself up to keep on falling I found peace in weightless sleep my world collapsed… No escape-no eyes to see, no ears to hear Just the scratching scratching scratching My bones on stone Pressing pushing against the buzzing dripping scratching rotting darkness’ Loving killing hatching mottled carcass No escape-no eyes to see, no ears to hear I was not meant to be, but you are meant to bleed Bleed as my bones have no blood Feel me press you into the buzzing dripping scratching rotting darkness’ Loving killing hatching mottled carcass So afraid of being hurt I set myself up to keep on falling I found peace in weightless sleep while my world collapsed So unplug me from the dream Because this is not the grave for me I’ve spent my whole life scratching at clouds Until the cracks woke up reached out and wrapped round me Working on my fingers, loosening the grip Cold and frantic they pull me down with nooses round my wrists As I kiss the clouds goodbye, they crumble 'neath my lips Like dried bones A ring of light shines through the filth. A ring of light in the darkest dried blood. Talismanic…possessive…irresistible in the sweltering madness I’ve spent my whole life scratching at clouds Until the cracks woke up reached out and wrapped round me Death is just a dream The cracks in this world match the scars on me No eyes to see, no ears to hear, no life, no death no escape For you or me
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Amor y Decadencia 10:47
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I’m dreaming of drowning, it’s time for me to go back I’ve been drowning in your dreaming I’ve swam too far into your glimmering eyes I can feel the fingers of the undertow caress my form Whispering lullabies, as it lays me down to sleep I was a fool to think, I could find a home Out on the open sea I have succumbed to mortal disease How could I believe I could breathe in iron and not sink? I’m breathing but floundering my lungs are a foundry Forging the blades that will free me from the boundaries of my body Why am I so afraid to be freed by the fates? I can feel the needles piercing my skin Scratching at my skeleton Severing the nerves that would betray me I was a fool to think, I could find love Out on the open sea I have succumbed to mortal disease How could I believe I could breathe in iron and not sink? No hay coraje en nuestros corazones Porque sabemos el alma tras los ojos que vemos llorando Sabemos el dolor de las promesas que rompemos Sabemos que amor es un eterno sufrimiento Sensations of numbness and warmth, washing over me More comforting than any earthly embrace It’s time to let go And so I give myself to the depths I am heavy, the water pressing in Purifying, releasing soul from shell I am blue, and wrought from iron I will die But when I am washed ashore on some moonless night I will be whole And I will walk the earth once more And I will never seek shelter in the arms of the ocean The tempest-the temptress Ever again No hay coraje en nuestros corazones No hay coraje en decadencia

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released October 8, 2011

Donovan Tousignant - guitar, bass, keyboards, vocals, percussion
Taylor Thorne, drums, marimba, vocals
Meyer Neel - bass, vocals
Nathan Smith - keyboards, percussion, vocals

Art by Taylor Thorne
Design by Donovan Tousignant

Engineered by Brandon Drury at Echo Echo, and Donovan T/Taylor T at Mordhaus and The Beer Fort

Special thanks to Rosa Morales

(c) 2011 The Aether Tree

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The Aether Tree was an experimental post-metal band that made music in Missouri from 2008 to 2014. Their third and final album Sleeper was released February 1st, 2015.

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